Saturday, March 24, 2012

May the odds be ever in your favor!

Yay! Finally! The time has arrived, Hunger Games is here! After having such an amazing night with such a great group of friends, we got up this morning and went to see the movie.

I LOVED IT!!! I think the energy kept up throughout the movie. I think they did a wonderful job of taking an awesome book and putting it on the big screen. Yes, they took out some minor characters and left out some details, but they got all the important parts and did a good job of adding a couple things to explain the background of the games and the rebellion against the Capitol. I loved too that even if you haven't read the book yet, you can still enjoy the movie... but I still highly recommend reading the book since they couldn't fit in every little detail, like most book to movies cannot.

I think the cast was awesome. I don't think that I could have picked the cast better myself. There was the perfect amount of action, blood and more importantly, the love story. I laughed, I teared up a few times, and yes, I did cry... but I think that's natural when you fall in love with the characters you read then see the emotion that only a movie, with the perfect instrumental music in the background, can bring.

I will definitely be seeing this movie again... and again... and I am sure, yet again. More so, I cannot wait till November 2013 to see Catching Fire, just to fall in love more with all the characters over again.

I don't wanna give away anymore of the plot and any other details that the preview doesn't. But if you have been living under a rock the last month and haven't seen the trailer for it before, here you go.

Happy Hunger Games!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Echoes & Silence... Patience & Grace...

Wow! I totally failed on my New Year's resolution; wanting to keep up with my blog entries hasn't exactly been the easiest as of late. I was hoping 2012 would have been better, but it has slowly fallen apart... but I am picking up the pieces, getting up and dusting myself off, and trying my hardest every day to get by and move forward.

January started with Michael having his yearly workup for the transplant list at the Mayo Clinic. We got news that he had an abnormal stress test and he had to have more procedures done to find out why. They found 2 arteries 70% or more blocked and proceeded to put in 2 stents. Afterwards, he did really well but I think his body, and him, was just getting worn out. He's been through so much practically his entire life, but probably the most in the last 2 years once his kidney failed. February 23, 2012, 10 months and 1 day after I married my best friend of 10 years, I had to let him go. He was ready, but none of us were, no matter how prepared we could have been with how sick he has been.

It all still seems like a dream. I keep waiting for him to roll out of the bathroom or down the hall or find him on the computer when I come home from work. I even wake up in the middle of the night to see if he's come to bed, just like I did for so long... old habits are hard to break I suppose. Even though I miss him so much and dreaded saying good-bye to him, I know he is in a better place, with both legs, free of pain... and that makes me smile, regardless of the pain inside and emptiness in the home that that we made together.

Today marks out 11 month-iversary from our wedding day and tomorrow will be a month since he passed. How quick life can throw you a curve ball and things can change so drastically on a dime. One day you are planning your wedding, not even a year later you are planning your husband's funeral. If one things this has taught me is to cherish the people you have in your life, and do it NOW! Not next week cause you're too busy this week. NOW! You never now when will be the last time you see someone you love.

Lastly, I want to thank all of my family and friends that have gotten me through this rough time in my life. Without their support, love and encouragement, I don't know what I would do. Michael touched so many lives... with his generous heart, with his wise cracks and humor. Some of you were even honored by seeing the "man-kini" or taking in his own personal "man-made aroma therapy".

I would love to hear some of your favorite memories of Michael on the comments of this post so I can keep them forever. For those of you that weren't able to attend his memorial service, I would like to share the awesome slide show that his amazing sister, Debbie, put together. Good way to remember Michael, as he would have wanted to be remembered, laughing and smiling. The songs are "Home" by the Foo Fighters and "Just Breathe" by Pearl Jam. Both have very special meaning, besides being two of his favorite bands. Debbie picked "Home" for obvious reasons, just listen to the words. The Pearl Jam song I chose since it was one we played at our wedding and seemed fitting.

Meet you on the other side, baby! Love you more than the numbers of stars in the sky! xoxo


Saturday, December 31, 2011

Good Riddance 2011!!!

I can't believe it's been almost 3 months since I last did a blog post... I am so sorry and first off I will say one of my 2012 resolutions is to be a better bloggerer. :)

I don't know about you but I am so ready for this year to be over already! It's been full of ups and downs, the biggest UP being ME GETTING MARRIED! :) But I feel like that was my only real "up" this year and there were just way too many "downs". 2010 was a bad year for us, mostly Michael, with his health and all so we were ready for 2011 to be a better year. Well, after getting married, Michael is now officially on the transplant list for over 6 months now... so 2012 has to be better... hopefully a transplant in our near future.

2011 was full of lots of trials, tears and thankfulness. I thank God every day for blessing me with what he has given me, and also what he HASN'T given me. I am blessed and I know that He will get us through whatever he brings to us. If there's anything this year has taught me it's been to be grateful, patient, and faithful.

Friends have lost mothers this year, sadly one I was very close to and considered a second mom to me growing up. That wound is still very fresh and even brings tears to my eyes as I type this. This has to be the worst part of getting older, getting to the age where parents start to go. I dread the day I have to experience this since I have seen 2 very close and old friends go through this and it, well, SUCKS! But knowing that they have passed on their legacies to my friends, I know they will live on in all the hearts that they touched in their lives.

I've been through a lot with friends this year. Besides friends losing parents, I have had friends go through cancer scares, one try to commit suicide, I have lost friends and have made some amazing ones at that. I recently got to spend some time with a friend I made when I first moved to AZ. She and her family moved back to PA about 3 years or so ago and she's out here for the holidays. I missed her all this time, but didn't realize just how much till we had to say good-bye again. I am hoping that 2012 will bring us a time where we can visit again. I am praying that my friends, and my family, have a blessed and healthy 2012. That they all realize that each one of them mean the world to me, even if we don't get to see each other, or even talk that often like we used to. I am still here for them, just as I always have.

The biggest obstacle we've had to face this year was my husband losing his right leg. We've adjusted though wonderfully and really, besides him being in a wheelchair, I don't feel like that much has really changed. We are still able to go and do things and his spirit is still up which I love. He doesn't let his handicap make him incapable of doing something. He inspires me everyday and I am so proud of him for how far he's come. He is so strong and in turn that makes me stronger. I know 2012 is gonna be our year!

Just as everyone does every New Year, I have come up with my resolutions for 2012.
1. Lose weight and get healthy
2. Save money to buy a house in 2013
3. Get more organized
There's other little ones too but they go along with these 3 major ones.
What are your resolutions?

I want to wish everyone a safe and Happy New Year! May God bless you in many ways. And thank you to each of you for being such an important part of my life. I hope that next year we can spend more time together making memories.

Bring on 2012!